Danger
As i walked home yesterday a guy and his girl walked past me. i thought i heard him mumble something, of this i cant be sure, but it ate and ate and ate away at me as i walked home. at the time i said nothing and walked away because i was fairly sure that what he said wasnt about me, and most probably just talking to his girl, maybe about someone else, but the more i dwelled the more i became sure he had insulted me. i got home in a rage, sat down, tried to calm myself. i took some of my anger medication, prescribed to stop trouble like this. i sat and sat and got angrier and angrier, until i knew that if i didnt go back and find him it would drive me insane. i grabbed my knife and went out to find him. i couldnt, i dont know what i would have done if i did, i like to believe that i would have given him a stern talking to, but i feel that this may not have been the case.
posted by Ether @ 1:44 PM
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2 Comments:
gosh, what did he say?
i do that a lot (assume that people are talking about/laughing at me, even if they're complete strangers) and even though i know that 99% of the time they probably haven't even noticed me, never mind are talking about me, i just need to tell myself to get over it. sounds harsh, but i can almost guarantee they weren't, and if they were, they're not the kind of people you want to waste time even thinking about, nevermind anything else!
well i hav to say i'm glad u didn't find them.
i know i alsways assume people are talking/ laughing about me too but i get usrt not angry.
could you try writing down all the things you would've said to them if you'd heard them insult you and exactly how the situation made you feel. might not help but it could help you understand the anger a little more. maybe?
try to come up with your own techniques to stop yourself geting to that level of rae, could you tell someone about it and see what they say? that way, if you hear i from other people that the comment probably wasn't about you it might reassure you.
take care and (i know this is really unhelpful) try not to tak knife with you anywhere if you'll be tempted to use it
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