depressed?
if my class notes are anything to go by, then a person can be diagnosed with depression if they suffer with a sad, depressed mood for over 2 weeks and at least 4 of the following:
1. loss of interest and pleasure in usual activites (check)
2. negative self concept, feelings of worthlessness and guilt (check)
3. difficulty in concentrating (check)
4. recurrent thoughts of death/sucide (check)
5. difficukty sleeping (check)
6. loss of energy/faitgue (check)
7. poor appetite & weightloss/increase in appetite & weight gain (check)
8. shift in activity, either becoming lethargic of agitated (check)
i've felt all 8, sometimes all at once, usually four at a time, for years.
add to that 4 years of self harm and you have one happy individual.
yet part of me doesn't want help. i couldn't tell you why.
i'm scared to tell anyone. one person knows and they're ok with it. i want people to notice i'm not happy, i want people to care, but i hide it.
i dont know how much longer i can cope like this.
i just don't want to be here any more.
posted by Ether @ 7:32 AM
5 Comments
5 Comments:
it's hard to explain how your friends must be feeling. if you actually spoke to them about it, it'd be easier.
otherwise, it's probably making them uncomfortable - do they pretend they don't notice or do they say something about it, risk being wrong and make you (and themselves) uncomfortable and embarrassed?
no matter how close you are with someone, they don't wanna overstep the mark. some people just aren't good at giving advice, especially if it's just life in general and not one specific thing that's getting you down.
sorry to sound cliched, but maybe you should go and speak to someone who's trained in this kinda thing?
there's be no embarrassment on your behalf as you don't even know the person you're speaking to, and they won't feel like they're to blame/guilty, as your friends might.
hope this helps a bit!
Wow; I could have written that. I was studying psychology once and they categorised depression into those same categories, and it felt as though they were describing me.
I know what you mean when you say that you don't want to seek help. It's like... if they prescribe pills or therapy, it still doesn't rid you of the ill, it just masks it.
nothing really to add except i relat totally.
you're not alone. i know getting help can seem really scary but you could see a gp confidentially or confide in a friend or teacher. don't do this alone. hang in there.
take care xx
original poster:
it's so hard.
thank you for replying.
i don't know how much longer i can cope with being kicked back to the floor when i try to pick myself up.
why bother?
i feel so damn alone, all these people around and i don't feel like part of them.
so down, so so down.
I agree with talking to a professional, I know I didn't want o and when I went it actually really helped. And I know depression is complex and individual, do you ave any ideo of a possible source? Identifying that and getting help delaing with that may be more effective. And friends are only human too, they can only try to speak from the ehart, though the fact that thye try shows they love and care for you. I hope you can treasure the brighter points in your life and recover somehow. Best wishes and luck from me x
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