a perfect wreck
sorry in avance for a self indulagant rant but its nice to have somewhere to
vent.
why can no-one see how suicidal i am? i hate myself so much, i'm a pathetic, weak person and i can't cope with life.
why? i have no idea. no reason. no justification.
i'm the girl that laughs all day long with her friends
i'm the girl that's everyone's shoulder to cry on
i'm the girl that gets straight a's and ames everyone oh so proud
i'm the girl with friends that are always there- if only i could confide in them
i'm the girl that's got it all and cries herself to sleep, slashes her wrist, OD's, starves
and tells no-one.
slipping. going down.
i can't ask for help
but i can't go on like this much longer
sorry for this whiny, emo crap.
posted by Ether @ 12:41 PM
4 Comments
4 Comments:
don't be sorry, it's what this place is for.
hun i could have written that myself. except one bit, the starving bit, which is reversed for me.
you can ask for help. i think no one can see because, if you're like me, you try your best to hide how you feel from everyone around you. maybe if you try confiding in a friend? i know how hard this can be but that's what friends are for.
try anything possible to distract yourself from your SI urges. drawing? writing? anything. or come on here and tell us how you are feeling.
you are not pathetic or weak, you are struggling with your feelings, but this doesn't make you a weak person and you can come through this. you deserve help as much as the next person, and i hope soon yu can take that step of telling someone and getting help.
stay safe
Repeating the words of the previous Anonymous, never apologise. This place was set up for the purpose of encouraging people like us to speak up.
I am my friends' collective spewpot for all the stuff they ever need to tell someone about; I'm the one they talk to and I always listen. I know how it feels to have no one there to reciprocate.
In terms of self harm... I really don't know really what to say. I've never been a regular self harmer, it's always been in the most stressful and painful times I've turned to it. And I don't know why. Does the SI help with the pain?
i don't know if i know who posted this obviously, but if i do, (or even if i don't i suppose) please talk to me (or someone else).
and in response to the second anonymous, i think i know who you are and i might not say it in words very often, or at all, but i will always be here to listen. i might not be able to help, but i know how good it feels to sometimes just get stuff off your chest.
what are friends for?
People forget that just because you appear happy and bouncy that you do not necessarily feel that way inside. Just this boar is proof that people feel this way and many hide it. Indeed, perhaps highs inevitably come with lows. I agree with talking to your friends, if they are worth their salt they will want to show you how appreciative they are of all your support. Feeling this way is not simple at all an I hope you get relief in some healthier way, such as talkign to friends or a counsellor. Use the love around you. Best wishes and luck from me x
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