suicide
why does it seem so logical. the perfect solution?
if it works i'll be free of the pain, the overwhleming sadness, free of this life forever
and if it doesn't
maybe someone will acutally notice that i'm dying inside everyday, that i need help.
so wheres the catch?
win win right?
i know i'm a selfish, evil person for thinking of doing this to those i love but i'm just not strong enough. i've already started making plans.
so tell me, when is it too late to be saved?
posted by Ether @ 3:09 PM
5 Comments
5 Comments:
it does seem a logical solution, but it's like the saying goes, it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. i can't tell you when and how things will improve but i can tell you that they will.
is there anyone you can talk to about how you are feeling?
whatever you may feel about yourself, having suicidal thoughts does not make you selfish or evil, it makes you someone who is suffering and needs help.
you could get help now, tell someone that you are feeling suicidal, a friend, family member, teacher, colleage, doctor even, it is too late wwhen you are dead.
i know you will come through this, and if you choose to get help, good luck.
You can always post here - there will always be a place for you.
Suicidal feelings are not your fault. Don't feel bad for them; realise that you need to work through them. Ether can help, but it's easy to say "talk to someone", a lot harder to actually do it.
In short, I have no real advice to give you, other than don't be hasty. Talk through your plans, on here or with someone you trust. Don't be scared of posting. We are here to help.
For me, the idea of suicide, the concept, is very reassuring. when i feel most trapped, when i feel at the end of my strength and coping ability, it reassures me that there is always a way out, no matter how bad i feel. im going to keep it as a concept though, and even though i cant tell you what to do im hoping you do the same. maybe it can bring you reassurance like me, even if you choose not to use it.
I'm sorry, but I have to disagree. I'm sorry for you, and obviously whatever's making you feel so bad must be pretty horrible if it's making you think of suicide, but it's not an answer at all.
Talk to someone!
Even if it's just this blog. WHY do you feel like this? Imagine what would happen if you actually killed yourself. Or you tried and failed, only to end up in a hospital for the rest of your life because you injured yourself and ended up with brain damage, or they didn't trust you enough to let you out.
It might be hard, but professionals are there for a reason and they won't judge you. You'd probably be surprised at how good it feels to have someone who knows nothing about you listening to you just vent.
Whatever it is that's making you feel like this, there's always going to be a way to fix it, don't give up.
Good words.
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