food
i can't deal with this. i can't.
i can't bear to keep eating when i can feel the fat pilling on with every bite.
i'm not slim, not skinny, i'm disgusting and my parents are forcing me to eat massive meals.
if they carry on i'm gonna refuse to eat at all. just stop and live on liquids. why why why won't they let me control my own body, why won't they let me skinny? skinny is perfect, skinny is beautiful. oh god oh god i need to throw up but they're listening, they'll know. shit shit what to do. i wanna be skin and bone, light as a feather, i wanna see my ribcage again. i was getting there and then i was weak, i gave up, thought i needed food. i don't. i ned control. i need nothing. fat and worthless. now all i wanna do is throw up, cut myself to pieces and cry. thanks alot parents. stay the fuck outta my life!
(no replies needed or expected i'm just pissed off)
posted by Ether @ 12:37 PM
5 Comments
5 Comments:
You need to get help. Skinny is unhealthy. What makes you think that it is beautiful? I suppose at least by getting so thin as to expose your bones would make you appear as pathetic as you sound. Grow the fuck up.
well that was charming.
whoever this is, they probably do need to see a doctor but that attitude is what this place is not supposed to be about.
grow up?
FUCK YOU!
do you think i wanna be this way?
do you think i wanna hate the way i look so much that i starve myself, that i'm constantly exhausted, that everyone's worried about me, that my depression gets worse?
i hate being this way but i need it. try to understand that i don't choose to be this way.
thanks a fucking lot for your support anonymous fuckface!
(thanks other random person who wasn't a bastard)
i'm gonna give a link to another website here, for people who self harm and/or suffer from eating disorders to go and talk to others in the same boat and get support: www.recoveryourlife.com
i hope you use it and it helps.
your parents are making you eat because they're worried about you hun, eating disorders are very serious and you do need help to get better hun.
you don't need this, it's a way of gaining control of life but there are other, much healthier ways.
i hope you feel able to get the help you need and deserve soon.
I'm not going toi go into society and the media, because we all know that it's all crap and that skinny is neither beautiful or healthy. I agree with the other comment, the people trying to get you to eat do love you and are trying to help. I also recommend talkign to people who feel the same way. I know that it may be difficult but it sounds like you have support and I hope you can feel better and be happy and healthy. Best wishes from me.
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