hmmm

This isn't meant to be secret or anything, I've just been thinking about some stuff and I don't think it's anything I could ever come to a conclusion about, I just wanted to write it down.
I've never been one for worrying, really, I mean, I'm young, what does it matter? And I've never been the kind of person who could be swayed from what they wanted to do by other people, especially when it's clear the other people aren't entirely... sane? (I can't think of a better word, I don't actually know anyone who is truly insane!)
I'm just amazed at how people who have so much in common, or at least did at one point, can have such a different outlook on life. And why someone who, to me at least, has no reason to be so insecure, is.
It really gets to me. I know, I know, it's not me, but it's people I care about, and I just don't understand how they can think what they're doing is normal and they're actually gonna end up happy. Don't get me wrong, I hope they are, I just can't see it coming..
Whoever's reading this might just think I should mind my own business, but I care about these people, they're my friends, and sorry to sound selfish, but they WILL expect me to be there to pick up the pieces when it all goes wrong yet again, and sometimes I just think 'why should I?' I know that's horrible, and I would always be there, I just wish people would sometimes listen to their friends or family, or whoever it is, just take it into the smallest consideration?
Enjoy yourself while you're young, life's much too short.

I Quit!

Fuck it! Its as simple as just not doing anything, its as easy as quitting, thats exactly what it is, its something i hate, something i despise, something that makes me miserable, so no qualms about quitting. I have no money, no job lined up, no place to live and no people to not live there with, i have really strong feelings for someone who has really strong feelings for me (confirmed) but nothing can ever happens for reasons ridiculous (confirmed). Im unhappy, really really stay in bed and cry unhappy, yet just quitting fills me with relief, its freedom of a sort, the change from having no control over your days to being in control of your choices. I truly couldnt give a flying ducky towards the obvious problems that it will cause in the long term because right now im happy that i am quitting. For so long i didnt even see that there was an option, but now its blindingly clear. and i am happy. i havent felt happiness for a long time.

I quit!